The whole time I've been blogging, I've seen other bloggers go private or restrict their comments. I didn't think it was a big deal until last night. I received a not-so-nice comment from an anonymous poster and it hurt. Well, at first it did. Then I got angry. I never claimed to be perfect, and I struggle with my eating and exercise every day of my life. JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. That's what makes this a challenge. I'm not putting my life out there for you to judge me. You live your life how you want, and I will decide how to lead mine. Personally, to me, a life without chocolate or wine is not a life worth living. We need to realize that this is not beautiful:
I don't ever want to look like that. I don't ever want to feel how I imagine her to feel. No thank you. So, yes, I indulge in food. I don't think one candy bar (or in fact a whole bag of candy bars once in a blue moon) is going to throw my whole weight loss journey off track. I may be stalled, but at the same time, I haven't gained back the 45+ pounds that I've lost to this point. If you think splurging once in a while is unhealthy, well, kudos to you. To me, I call that life.
So... thank you, snarky anonymous commenter. Thank you for making me angry enough to write this post. Thank you for finally making me stand up for myself. Just this morning, this girl who was MEAN to me in high school friended me on Facebook. You've got to be kidding me. Do you not think I remember all the mean things you said about me in high school? Things that you told me to my face? Things that still hurt me 15 years later? Well.... I'm not 13 anymore. So, if you want to tell me I'm fat, that I eat too much, blah blah blah... you can't hide behind the anonymous tag anymore. I feel bad for my friends who don't have a blogger tag (but you can make one!) who used to post through the anonymous tab, but I had to take it down. If you want to try to rip me down, do it to my face. Don't be a coward. Oh, and by the way? This is for you.